There is almost no information about these drugs and what it can do to you. Here I like to share with you what happened to me so that you can help yourself, your loved ones or friends to taper off safely and regain their lives.

3 years ago, I suffered from insomnia. At it worse, I was able to sleep about 3 hours a night. I went to see a doctor and was prescribed the sleeping pill, Dormicun. After 2 dosages, instead of helping me, it drove me into depression and I thought of killing myself, which off course I did not do.

Later, I was prescribed Clonazepam and that it would help me sleep. Yes, it did make me what appeared to be sleeping but it was shallow sleep (Stage 2 out of 5 stages) and not restful preventing the brain from making the necessary chemicals for energy the next day. I was told it was not addictive and that the dosage of 0.5 mg was so small. I thought it could help me but little did I know it drove me into deeper depression. I took for 3 nights and stopped. After that, I had terrible withdrawal symptoms such as blurred vision, sunlight pained my eyes, light seemed to turn grey, balance problems like wanting to fall down, drowsiness, etc. It made my insomnia worse.

Later I was prescribed antidepressant, Lexapro. Again I thought it could cure me and make me well. I was so wrong. It made my life worse than hell. Any antidepressant is to be taken in the morning but my psychiatrist told me to take in the evening! As it is a powerful stimulant, it further prevented me from having deep sleep. Because of the shallow sleep at night, I was so tired during the day. Although I was so tried and wanted to sleep, I was unable to nap during the afternoon. It was if sleep have left me. So everyday I waited till night time to take the poisons and thought I slept but it was the useless shallow sleep. The cycle went on and on. I had no energy. I was barely able to go work and my performance suffered tremendously. After work, I did not have energy to do anything else. I just stayed at home to rest even though my family and friends called me to go out to socialize or exercise. At that time, I told I had no future and there were constant thoughts of wanting to die because my body was so so exhausted. It was not worth living. Now I know these poisons cause suicidal thoughts and many people commit suicides because of these poisons. A medicine that is supposed to cure you of insomnia or depression actually causes suicide. You can read in the newspaper of famous film stars dying because of taking benzodiazepine or antidepressants. You read horrible shooting incidents because of antidepressants.

I spent 7 months of the most horrible time of my life because of these poisons. At first I did not know what and why this was happening to me. What saved me was searching for information on these poisons and reading the Ashton Manual (http://www.benzo.org.uk/manual/index.htm) in the internet which led me to join the BenzoIsland forum (http://benzoisland.org/index.html). This started my journey of learning about these poisons and what they do to you. With the knowledge and the help of the forum, I started tapering these poisons slowly and it took me 9 months to taper safely to zero. I regain and enjoy life now. I am now happy and I know I have a bright future.

Clonazepam and Lexapro are so addictive. If you are not aware as all of us are and you stopped the poisons ( I call them poisons because they poison the brain), you may be fine for a few days because the poisons are still in your blood. After your body metabolizes the poisons in a few days, you will have horrible withdrawal symptoms so horrible that you may loose your mind and the doc will diagnose you as mad and give you more poisons and you become more addicted. The doc calls it relapse. Actually it is not relapse. It is the horrible withdrawal symptoms from the poisons. And if you misbehave or do not want to take your medication and had a relapse, the doc prescribed more powerful psychotic poisons and the cycle of drugging you begins until they call you bi-polar and schizophrenia and drug you with the worst kind of psychotic poisons.

Many people who suffer from loss of loved one, divorce, being jilted, change of jobs, moving houses and appeals to break down are prescribed these poisons for life but these poisons do not cure them. They put them in a limbo state, drugged and emotionally dead.. You think you sleep at night after taking the poisons but the sleep is useless shallow sleep because of the poisons acting on your brain. Many people lives are lost and wasted as they are drugged until they die. You are not yourself and you cannot live a normal life. Because you are always tired due to the shallow sleep, you cannot perform your work well. You have no energy to go out of the house and to the things that normal people do. You suffer horribly.

Regain your life and get well by tapering off safely. Nobody can withstand the horrible withdraw symptoms if you stop taking the poisons abruptly. So do not cold-turkey because you will suffer horribly and you may even break down and be drugged even more.

All of us believe our doc. But beware of your doc! They are not always right! Research the medicine they prescribe and do not take them if they are poisons.

I wish anyone who is taking these posions or their loved ones or friends read this and that they will find out more and read and with the knowledge, taper off safely and regain their lives.

I wish you well.