Sleeping pill, Clonazepam and Lexapro

There is almost no information about these drugs and what it can do to you. Here I like to share with you what happened to me so that you can help yourself, your loved ones or friends to taper off safely and regain their lives.

3 years ago, I suffered from insomnia. At it worse, I was able to sleep about 3 hours a night. I went to see a doctor who prescribed the sleeping pill, Dormicun. After 2 dosages, instead of helping me, it drove me into depression and I thought of killing myself, which off course I did not do.

Later, I was prescribed Clonazepam and that it would help me sleep. Yes, it did make me what appeared to be sleeping but it was shallow sleep (Stage 2 out of 5 stages) and not restful preventing the brain from making the necessary chemicals for energy the next day. I was told it was not addictive and that the dosage of 0.5 mg was so small. I thought it could help me but little did I know it drove me into deeper depression. I took it for 3 nights and stopped. After that, I had terrible withdrawal symptoms such as blurred vision, sunlight pained my eyes, light seemed to turn grey, balance problems like wanting to fall down, drowsiness, etc. It made my insomnia worse.

Later I was prescribed antidepressant, Lexapro. Again I thought it could cure me and make me well. I was so wrong. It made my life worse than hell. Any antidepressant is to be taken in the morning but my psychiatrist told me to take in the evening! As it is a powerful stimulant, it further prevented me from having deep sleep. Because of the shallow sleep at night, I was so tired during the day. Although I was so tried and wanted to sleep, I was unable to nap during the afternoon. It was as if sleep have left me. So everyday I waited till night time to take the poisons and thought I slept but it was the useless shallow sleep. The cycle went on and on. I had no energy. I was barely able to go work and my performance suffered tremendously. After work, I did not have energy to do anything else. I just stayed at home to rest even though my family and friends called me to go out to socialize or exercise. At that time, I thought I had no future and there were constant thoughts of wanting to die because my body was so exhausted and my brain poisoned. It was not worth living. Now I know these poisons interfere with my brain functions and caused so much suicidal thoughts and many people commit suicides because of these poisons. A medicine that is supposed to cure you of insomnia or depression actually causes you to commit suicide. You can read in the newspaper of famous film stars dying because of taking benzodiazepine or antidepressants. You read horrible shooting incidents because of antidepressants.

I spent 7 months of the most horrible time of my life because of these poisons. At first I did not know what and why this was happening to me. What saved me was searching for information on these poisons and reading the Ashton Manual (http://www.benzo.org.uk/manual/index.htm) in the internet which led me to join a free forum, BenzoIsland forum (http://benzoisland.org/index.html). This started my journey of learning about these poisons and recovery. With the knowledge and the help of the good people of the forum, I started tapering these poisons slowly and it took me 9 months to taper safely to zero. I regain and enjoy life now. I am now happy and I know I have a bright future.

Clonazepam and Lexapro are so addictive. If you are not aware as all of us are and you stopped the poisons ( I call them poisons because they poison the brain), you may be fine for a few days because the poisons are still in your blood. After your body metabolizes the poisons in a few days, you will have horrible withdrawal symptoms so horrible that you may loose your mind and the doc will diagnose you as mad and give you more powerful poisons and you become more addicted. The doc calls it relapse. Actually it is not relapse. It is the horrible withdrawal symptoms from the poisons. And if you misbehave or do not want to take your medication and had a relapse, the doc prescribed more and more powerful psychotic poisons and the cycle of drugging you begins until they call you bi-polar and schizophrenia and drug you with the worst kind of psychotic poisons.

Many people who suffer from loss of loved one or jobs, divorce, being jilted, moving houses, family, relationship or money problems initially have sleeping problems or insomnia. Many people can survive with little sleep as long as they rest their bodies at night so that the brain can make the necessary chemicals for living or energy the next day and not to worry too much. Given time they will recover on their own, provided they are not poisoned by so called medicine.

Join the BenzoIsland forum and regain your life.